'i wish you well'

Hey blog world,
So yeah out of all my mates I'm the only one who blogs now.
I guess it's because all the people who caused all the problems aren't around anymore lol, to be honest I feel completely whole now, no anger, minimal worry (mums op is something to worry about it's the only thing I worry about) , I feel happy. The whole boyfriend thing don't bother me either although there are LOADS of hot boys at college, in that right miss Katie ;) . And gosh do I laugh alot now seriously all the time now , Katie and jinny are so easy to be around :) all that's missing is Ellen and cally<3 miss you guys so much . TC cally ;) xxx
mums op is on the 1st of november xxxx

Love
Charlie

' live and let die '

back again world, so yep on thursday its one year since my lovely aunt died :( xxx not something to be excited about. I over heard my mum talking about her op yesterday, and to be honest she thinks shes going to die, or has mouth cancer . I must admit our family is isnt lucky most of us are dying or simply very ill. Maybe it is happening for a reason . It demonstrates the devils presence doesnt it ?! But god seems to have forgotten the human race. My family dont have the worst of it but sometimes we all selfishly think 'why me?' And the answer its not just one person who suffers , we all do, some suffer hunger, others illness, a few suffer loneliness. So while i was on my short path of enlightenment i have discovered greed doesnt cause our suffering and there is no almighty god above, we just simply live to reproduce and die just like science says but there is a reason we believe something is out there. Hope. We hope something is out there so there is a reason we make bad choices. hope that when we die we arent alone. Hope is the only thing we have and every day theres less of it. Love charlie xxx

Lyrics to Therapy :
My ship went down
In a sea of sound
When I woke up alone
I had everything
A hand full of moments
I wished I could change
and a tounge like a nightmare
That cut like a blade
In a city of fools
I was careful and cool
but they tore me apart like a hurricane
A hand full of moments
I wished I could change
but I was carried away

Give me therapy
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling on everything
Therapy you were never a friend to me
and you can keep all your misery

My lungs gave out
as I faced the crowd
I think that keeping this up can be dangerous
I'm flesh and bone
I'm a rolling stone
And the experts say I'm delirious

Give me therapy
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling on everything
Therapy you were never a friend to me
and you can take back your misery

Arrogent boy
love yourself so no one has to
They're better off without you
(They're better off without you)
Arrogent boy
Cause a scene like your supposed to
They'll fall asleep without you
You're lucky if your memory remains

Give me therapy
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy you were never a friend to me
You can take back your misery
Therapy
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy you were never a friend to me
and you can choke on your misery

love charlie
xxxx