Wednesday, 31 March 2010

please don't stop the rain

so humlan utopia is pointless they wont change for no-one. it is totally not worht the money !
chesca i don't want your hair touching mine either i might become a chav over night and you really do need to grow up.

love roxy......and charlotte

Friday, 26 March 2010

feeling empty again

well i do. its strange isn't it how you can feel empty? just feeling nothing strange isn't it.

love Roxy

Tuesday, 23 March 2010


where does everybody go when they go?
they go so fast i don't think they know
we hate so fast and we love to slow

london i think we've got a problem

feeling sorry

so yeah how to say this .... i'm gay- nah joking !!!! bear you seemed to have noticed that ... well i'm not me to be honest i'm not. i can't stop worrying about aydin i haven't seen him in a while i didn't even get to wish him a happy brithday. sometimes my selfishness gets me down( you guys may think i'm not but i see it all the time)because well i hate being selfish but i can't see that 'thing' he and i have for a mother i just can't! i guess i feel sorry for me really not him which is worse.

i am happy for you and barbra ;)xxx you both seem so happy it makes me realise a little bit of what i am missing.


Wednesday, 17 March 2010

coolio pops

in science doing coursework with the teacher going moan moan moan !! and his a guy :D ! byes his gay.


It is an unfortunate fact that we can secure peace only by preparing for war.

The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing.

Tuesday, 16 March 2010

wows !!

that was eye opening! on both parts,
honey he loves you i think !!!!!!!!! and you are amazing even when i 'hate' you !!!! so keeep smiling !!! <3

and mr sunny jim you need to find peace of mind cause wolllowing in the dirt isn't going to help!! smile and yor friends will smile back. you aren't their hope your their luke.thats it of course they need you but you need them to.


Monday, 15 March 2010


you are seriously ill. what if she does need them huh ellen ? like you do and dont say you dont because you bloody do. and maybe if you didnt come off them because you think your better rather then what a professional says maybe then you wouldn't need them . did you think that through ? no you didn't. and.yes .i .undersand.depression. i have an aunt with it so don't use that fucking excuse !!!!!!!x

oh and if you cause a promblem i will not care. understood.

loads of love roxy
p.s. danger is close
run your fingers through my soul. for once, just once,feel exactly what i feel, believe what i believe,precieve as i precieve, look, experience,examine,and for once; just once , understand.

trying to make someone fall in love with you is just about as pointless as trying to control who you fall in love with

at the moment

perhaphs our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see life with a clear view again


Wednesday, 10 March 2010


honey but here's the truth
we are teenagers no-ones perfectly mature. we are aging . you shouldn't treat your friends the way you do because you have lost quite a few but tali and bear stick with you;have always stuck by you no matter what !! and your right we have an eternity to sleep but being alive making mistakes so you grow up to.


Tuesday, 9 March 2010

butterfly boy , a polish cowboy and catapillar boy

is butterfly boy his actual name ?
yes cally coz his mother totally named him that when he was born.

patryk will be a cow boy who sings cotton eyed joe

lolz with patryk and cally

sir are you average -'cause i'm extra large ;)


once i was a selfish fool

i. am. scared. i love you honey but seeing people and stuffs is some freaky shit.
we are all worried and scared how can we help ? sit with you and talk about it? talk to you when you feel lonely? i really honestly don't know!!!

oh and to the Peoples - you problems aren't there all you need in life are two things:
you dont talk through your problems you just write about it. TELL EACHOTHER !! thats what your suposed to do with your friends not decide to runaway, avoid it ,it doesnt work believe me i have tried . you. are. friends. point blank.

any hoo sees you later

Wednesday, 3 March 2010

oh happy days

happy birthday ellen

i knew this would happen not that i care anymore because i am leaving soon but you cease to amaze me !!
and i have peace of mind now so i am over everything just over it !!!!


Monday, 1 March 2010

life is a rollercoaster-i hate roller coasters

so my rib is fine nothing much wrong really !!!

i am so calm and colected at the moment life could through ALMOST anything at me.
ever since lyd died i haven't been seriously happy because it made me realise how little time we have here-on earth. i was being cautious even breathing with caution; then something clicked when i was reading a book. you never know whats going to happen but you should savour the moments that are good and treasure the ones that are bad because you learn from those bad moments alot!

i do hate life but i am starting to like it more everyday