so yeah how to say this .... i'm gay- nah joking !!!! bear you seemed to have noticed that ... well i'm not me to be honest i'm not. i can't stop worrying about aydin i haven't seen him in a while i didn't even get to wish him a happy brithday. sometimes my selfishness gets me down( you guys may think i'm not but i see it all the time)because well i hate being selfish but i can't see that 'thing' he and i have for a mother i just can't! i guess i feel sorry for me really not him which is worse.
i am happy for you and barbra ;)xxx you both seem so happy it makes me realise a little bit of what i am missing.