'honestly can you beleive we crossed the world while it was asleep'

hey bloggers,
my grandad is fine just had some blood clots they thought it was a heart attack which sucks really.any way newest promblem is our boiler doesnt work although i prefer that to having half my family ill or dying. so blogging aimlessly, aidan's lil sis is called amelie its a cute name :) xxx
love
charlie
xxx

'dear mr president were you a lonely boy ?'

so my grandad is in hospital again, surprisingly it doesnt shock me i mean someone is always ill in my family. his just having tests at the moment just to check his bloods and stuff. lets hope its nothing to serious hey ?

love
charlie
xxx

'down but not out'

the most rediculous phobias

Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.

Barophobia- Fear of gravity.

Chromophobia or Chromatophobia- Fear of colours.

Eleutherophobia- Fear of freedom.

Euphobia- Fear of hearing good news.

Hedonophobia- Fear of feeling pleasure.

Parthenophobia- Fear of virgins

Ouranophobia or Uranophobia- Fear of heaven.

Maniaphobia- Fear of insanity. ( will make you go insane)

' am i more then you bargined for?'

wow its been over a month.
yet i have nothing to write about. no love intrest. no problems. except for maybe one ? feeling unwanted at times you know ? like the night before my birthday my parents were arguing ( not much of a problem) but my mum acted as if she didnt want me and my sis she kept going on about how we were our fathers kids and we could fuck off. so will i ever have a mother figure ? because to be honest she doesnt waant to be our mum she feels forced into it. i can see it in her eyes sometimes the lack of love then the next second its gone from her eyes. is it my imagination ? more than likely right ? but then i have always used peoples eyes to read them and it worked before. i can tell when people are sad/uncofortable just by their eyes. when they hate me or think i'm pretty cool. however i havent ever had mother really and i never will . i AM unwanted there. i fought to live to survive all my life. my moto ' the only person you can depend on is yourself no-one else'. so maybe i should stick to it in evry part of my life. i mean thats why i dont date i push guys away or keep them away because they will only break your heart. is that the same with everyone you love ? honestly i dont know but i've been hurt so many times that my heart is definately locked away and sometimes i cant even find it but carry on right?

i had so much fun yesterday and it seems like garry has always been part of our group to be honest <3

'who shits on the floor in blockbuster?' ;)

imma growing my dumbledore beeard back :)
love
charlie
xxx