" somehow everything's going to fall right into place"

hey world,
 so today's discussion : being normal.

That's all i want to be. i want to fall in love with a normal guy and have a normal relationship  in a normal life. I'm just not normal in fact i can't be normal it's a shame it really is. Maybe my prince charming is just round the corner, lets face it i have never gone for normal guys i have always gone for those that have problems and are difficult because then i don't deal with my difficulties, my issues. i don't have to trust them with my heart either i can keep it locked away because they don't need it right? i don't need it either. i just need my brain, my logic that takes the magic out of it because that's what love is about magic, all those fairytales have it right, not the dashing smokin' hot princes part(although if there is any out there, i'm available)   but the bit about love being a uncontrollable  brutal and somewhat magical force that can make your life better and tear it apart within seconds.

for the first time in my life i like a seemingly normal guy ( he could be psycho who knows?)  but maybe its not  the the guy what if its the idea of him? the idea of normality. It goes back to the most basic human instinct selfishness  should i be selfish admittedly its something i don't do very often, should i be selfish and bask in the fact i like someone who's normal? throw a party  shout it from the rooftops? it's not because i'm in love far from i will always find that hard i always fight that feeling with force. Rather because i have done something normal for once i have achieved some normality. This talking to my family, the people i do love thing is actually working i have a long way to go but i'm one step closer (to heeeeaaavvveeen baby- s -club jrs google it) here's to hoping... one sec so long soldier is playing actually dislike  this song so much.... changed it. Lts celebrate my first ever act of normality !!!

going to Camden town tomorrow starting my make over, can't decide on blonde or more ginger .....

anyhoo i'm out motherfucka's
peace
Charlie
xx

'there's a side to me you have not seen before'

Hey,
So I'm turning over a new leaf, facing my problems head on rather then burying them,it's proving hard who knew I had so many issues to deal with ? there's a lot. At least I'm trying now. I guess it's because I would like to date at some point. I can't do that with so many problems relating to relationships it would be disastrous. So first problem on my list : grieving, properly not worrying about everyone else just dealing with my own. So far so good. It's like being on a roller coaster to be honest, I'm grieving for a whole group of people,an old life and a tiny piece of my soul but it's not a gaping hole anymore I'm stitching it up slowly. So phase one is almost complete.

The next step is abandonment issues, I
May need help with this one I'm not sure how to sort it on my own. I suppose finding what caused the issue first then working from there ?

I am officially a trainee nurse now. It weird when I first started this blog nursing wasn't even considered to be in my future, it's strange how life can change.

Watch out world I'm spreading my wings,
Charlie
Xxx

'well you can tell by the way that i use my walk i'm a woman's no time to talk'

hey there sexy people,

how are ya'll feeling today ?
just realised i used ya'll in my blog ...... sucks. I need to balance it out with britishness ... i'm feeling splendid my dear old chaps. Much better me thinks. So i'm watching glee with Jinny, it's really good this episode. I love glee it's all sing song-ish..... lottie our cover teacher called me lottie. I think you will find it's charlie not Lottie. Charlotte as whole is a BIG no no so why would i like lottie .... only my nanna can call me that because she's my nanna. I have almost finished watching the secret circle season one. I love that show sex, witchcraft, hot guys.... it's the bomb. Also watched water for elephants yesterday. i'm not rushing out to buy it to be honest. It's good but not brilliant. It was nice to see Robert Pattinson in a different role than Edward Cullen. Just saw Darren Criss in a leather jacket ...... i have no words.meep.

anyhoo see you all around ...sort of.

charlie
xx

'here's my number so call me maybe'

hey there people,
my college class have decided that there should be such a thing as condom bins in pub/club toilets
awesome.

charlie
xx

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Reckless -ymas

i've been trying to make sense


I've been shouting under my breath

How's in he opposite my interest

You sold me out, I must have not got the cheque

Your lust is a lie, but it comes as no surprise

Time after time, it goes right past the line

I do my best to, to make ammends with you

But I just can't see the end oh



Don't hold your breath, imma not losing sleep over you

I'm Mr Reckless with a capital R



(Chorus)



Don't hold your breath, imma not losing sleep over you

I'm Mr Reckless with a capital R

Don't hold your breath, imma not losing sleep over you

I'm Mr Reckless, and you're defenceless



And isn't it funny how

Those black clouds follow you around?

It's Karma smiling down

Just let me know when it's in town

You act like the world owes you a favour

You want it all but you don't like the taste, oh

You've been throwing bricks at my window

Like there's no better way to say 'hello'



Hello...



(Chorus)



[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/y/you-me-at-six-lyrics/reckless-lyrics.html ]

The best, you never had x4



I'm the devil on your shoulder

I'm the concious in your mind

I'm the feeling that you, you cannot hide

I'm the devil on your shoulder

Doesn't mean that love is blind

It's ok when it's Satan in disguise

Your loose lips let, let the words slide

You spend too much time thinking about my life

Stories you will spin, just for power trip

It's safe to say that I am not into it

In the picture you are not

Someone is in your spot

This is the result of people on moving on

Good luck with killing time

You won't be killing mine

I'll do my best

To always be on your mind



Your mind



I never once said I didn't mean this

I can't wait to see how this one pans out

You are the first to question my achievements

But that's all right, my dreams are living



Don't hold your breath, imma not losing sleep over you

I'm Mr Reckless with a capital R



(Chorus)



The best, you never had x4

planetary (Go)

There might be something outside your window
But you just never know
There could be something right past the turnpike gates
But you just never know

If my velocity starts to make you sweat
Then just don’t let go
And if the heaven ain’t got a vacancy
Then we just, then we just, then we just
Then we just get up and go!

Ladies and gentlemen
Truth is now acceptable
Fame is now injectable
Process the progress
This core is critical
Faith is unavaliable
Let's become incredible
Please understand that

I can't slow down
I won't be waiting for you
I can't stop now, because I'm dancing
This planet's ours to defend
Ain't got no time to pretend
Don't fuck around, this is our last chance

If my velocity starts to make you sweat
Then just don’t let go
Cause the emergency room got no vacancy
Then we just, then we just, then we just
Then we just get up and go!

Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Kill the party with me and never go home!
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Just leave the party with me, and never go home!

Your unbelieveable
Uh, so unbleieveable
Uh, you ruin everything
No, you better go home

I'm unbelieve, yeah
I'm undefeatable, yeah
Let’s ruin everything, blast it to the back row

Their so presentable,
Young and so ingestable
Stop, were recollectable
And I can't stand it!
This is a let 'em
A word is no regret of the sound
Please don’t go back on us now

If my velocity starts to make you sweat
Then just don’t let go
Cause the emergency room got no vacancy
Tell me who, do you trust, do you trust
And we just get up and go!

Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Kill the party with me and never go home!
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Just leave the party with me, and never go home!

You keep eternity, give us the radio
Deploy the battery, we’re taking back control
It gives the energy light up the effigy
No chance to take it slow, but now I'm sure you know
Know, know, know, know, know (1,2,3,4)

Get up and go!
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Kill the party with me and never go home
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Just leave the party with me, and never go home!

Are we still having fun?
Are you holding the gun?
Take the money and run
We’ll never go home!

I’ve got nothing to lose
You’ve got nothing to say
And we're leaving today
We’ll never go home!

I think I better go now
I think I better go now
I think I better go now!
Think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,

Go home!

what the hell ?

You say that I'm messing with your head
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
All cause I was making out with your friend
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
Love hurts whether it's right or wrong
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
I can't stop cause I'm having too much fun
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)

PRE-CHORUS
You're on your knees, begging please, "Stay with me"
But honestly? I just need to be a little crazy

CHORUS
All my life I've been good, but now?
I, I, I, am thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around
And I, I, I don't really care about

If you love me, if you hate me
You can save me baby, baby
All my life I've been good, but now?
What the hell

What? What? What?
What the hell

So what if I go out on a million dates?
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
You never call or listen to me anyway
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
I'd rather rage than sit around and wait all day
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
Don't get me wrong, I just need some time to play
(E-yeah-ay)

PRE-CHORUS
You're on your knees, begging please, "Stay with me" (la la la-ah)
But honestly? I just need to be a little crazy (crazy)

CHORUS
All my life I've been good, but now?
I, I, I, am thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around
And I, I, I don't really care about

If you love me, if you hate me
You can save me baby, baby
All my life I've been good, but now?
What the hell

La la la la la la la
Woah-oh, woah-oh-oh
La la la la la la la
Woah-oh, woah-oh-oh

You say that I'm messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head
When I'm messing with you in bed

CHORUS
All my life I've been good, but now?
I, I, I, am thinking what the hell (what the hell)
All I want is to mess around
And I, I, I don't really care about (I don't care about)
All my life I've been good, but now?
I, I, I, am thinking what the hell

All I want is to mess around
And I, I, I don't really care about (if you love me)
If you love me (you know)
If you hate me (you know)
You can save me baby, baby (if you love me)
All my life I've been good, but now?
What the hell

La la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la

back to go again - framing hanley

Ok didnt mean to do that, I miss her and all that but well it seems I'm the only one doing the missing. I miss ellen and sian alot to but i see them as much as I can, they haven't changed much thank god they are just a little bit more matured :). I love them <3 and my college friends well what can I say we have such a laugh including Ben his really quite fun. Josh dislikes me because i am of a different class ! I thought that was all the 18th century not 21st but ah wells :) I heard Danny and Claire broke up which makes me sad i was hoping they both would prove me wrong , especially Danny. Claire has a good heart <3.

Gotta go
Love
Charlie
Xxx

Everybody wants to change the world but no-one wants to die

Hey there bloggers,
How's you all?? I got my implant out And went back on the pill :) . Gosh I'm not really into this anymore. So update barely talk to cally we seem to have very little in common nowadays:(

'be a sinner , be a lover... Be italian'

Hey bloggers,

I don't know if italians are Actually like this but meh ! So what have all you been up to ? So Anyhoo today I'm just chillin .... And look people the beautiful sun is out!!! I feel sorry for japan though tough times out there ... I'm off anyways. See ya

Love
Charlie
Xxx

for Nanna paddy R.I.P.

'vera lynn we'll meet again'

Let's say goodbye with a smile dear,
Just for awhile dear, we must part
Don't let this parting upset you,
I'll not forget you, sweetheart,

We'll meet again,
Don't know where,don't know when.
But I know we'll meet again, some sunny day.

Keep smiling through ,
Just like you always do,
Till the blue skies chase those dark clouds, far away.

And I will just say hello,
To the folks that you know,
Tell them you won't be long,
They'll be happy to know that as I saw you go
You were singing this song .

back to go again

Is this really open to discuss?
Maybe we should just hang it up
We were so close
They said we were so far
And we swore by now we'd have them wow'd
But we're still stuck in this race.
With hopes and dreams a ton
When did we stop having fun?
We got lost somewhere they're not and

Do you remember when
We said it would never end
We won't back down
This time around
Stop where you are and wish
Little things couldn't kill this.
Count down from ten
We could be back to go again

Maybe we started phoning it in
But then again the numbers wouldn't quite make sense
They don't lie
Give me 10,000 eyes
And this isn't a song about candy
But we're still suckers the same
We fell for your lies
Each and every time
We got lost somewhere they're not and

Do you remember when
We said it would never end
We won't back down
This time around
Stop where you are and wish
Little things couldn't kill this.
Count down from ten
We could be back to go again
Back to go again, again

Time is like a bullet train
Running off the tracks
And it's never coming back
So let's grab this while we can
It's all in our hands
Do you remember when
Do you remember and

Do you remember when
We said it would never end
We won't back down
This time around
Stop where you are and trust
'cause little things would better kill us
Count down from ten
We could be back to go again

lollipop- framing hanley

She said he so sweet
I wanna lick the rapper

And she she licked me
Like a lollipop, like a lollipop

Shawty wanna thug
Bottles in the club
Shawty wanna hump
You know I like to touch
Ya lovely lady lumps
[x2]

Cute lil' mama had a swag like mine
She even wear her hair down her back like mine
I make her feel right when its wrong like lyin'
Man she ain't never had a love like mine
But Man I ain't never seen an ass like hers
That pussy in my mouth had me loss for words
I told her to back it up like berp berp
I made that ass jump like jerp jerp

That's when she she licked me
Like a lollipop, like a lollipop

Shawty wanna thug
Bottles in the club
Shawty wanna hump
You know I like to touch
Ya lovely lady lumps
[x2]

Won't you get on your knees
Won't you get on your knees

Call me so I can
Make it juicy for you
Call me so I can
Get it juicy for you
Call me so I can
Make it juicy for you
Call me so I can
Get it juicy
[x2]

Shawty wanna thug
Bottles in the club
Shawty wanna hump
You know I like to touch
Ya lovely lady lumps

Won't you get on your knees

"It Must Really Suck To Be Four Year Strong Right Now"

I'm a mess, such a wreck, don’t forget about it.
I drag myself through the dirt just to feel a little closer to the ground,
Because I've always had my head up in the clouds.
Take a second and look down,
I've got my name on a string,
Tangled up in lights, despite the fact that they are working.
I live my life on the line to find a way to be unforgettable.

Don’t fix it if it hasn’t broken yet!
Don’t regret it if it hasn’t happened yet!
So let’s GO! A tiny spark to set it off!
And EXPLODE! Ignite the dark, illuminate the unknown,
But since your heads in the clouds, the best advice I found is don’t look down.

Face the facts! You’re a betting man and the deck is stacked
Against you all the time,
Since your life is just a failure by design.
Do you feel like you're better without it?
Cause it looks like you're nothing without it.

Don’t fix it if it hasn’t broken yet!
Don’t regret it if it hasn’t happened yet!
So let’s GO! A tiny spark to set it off!
And EXPLODE! Ignite the dark, illuminate the unknown,
But since your heads in the clouds, the best advice I found is don’t look down.

(BREAKDOWN)
DON’T LOOK DOWN!
(BREAKDOWN)

A tiny spark TO SET IT OFF,
Ignite the dark AND LIVE IT UP!

Don’t fix it if it hasn’t broken yet!
Don’t regret it if it hasn’t happened yet!
So let’s GO! A tiny spark to set it off!
And EXPLODE! Ignite the dark, illuminate the unknown,
But since your heads in the clouds, the best advice I found is don’t look down.

Well it’s the best advice I've found...
DON’T LOOK DOWN!

'i've found the cure to growing older'

hey peoples,
so whats happening?
i've been hearing things about people and i want to help but i cant coz i'm not supposed to but im always here to help just incase. no matter what its what i do.

whats with all this secrets being blogged? i might try it but i suppose i'm unwilling because my secrets are mine but here it goes theres very few.

1. i really hate myself completely.
2.i'm fed up of keeping everyone else's secrets.
3.i want to remember my childhood but im scared to because i know some really bad stuff happened.

thats about it really, wow, at least i dont have loads it makes it less of an issue.

i haven't blogged in ages dude i always try to but get distracted by something. i guess i have no reason to i am completely happy well apart from my friends having some problems and they dont think i know of course but i'm not stupid.

hopefully going gigging with katie soon !!! SHE OWES ME A GIG. anyhoo best get going i'm going to watch 'the biggest loser' with mum and dad later ! easteners is on soon errrggg :| sucks.

lots of love
charlie
xxx

'honestly can you beleive we crossed the world while it was asleep'

hey bloggers,
my grandad is fine just had some blood clots they thought it was a heart attack which sucks really.any way newest promblem is our boiler doesnt work although i prefer that to having half my family ill or dying. so blogging aimlessly, aidan's lil sis is called amelie its a cute name :) xxx
love
charlie
xxx