i've been trying to make sense
I've been shouting under my breath
How's in he opposite my interest
You sold me out, I must have not got the cheque
Your lust is a lie, but it comes as no surprise
Time after time, it goes right past the line
I do my best to, to make ammends with you
But I just can't see the end oh
Don't hold your breath, imma not losing sleep over you
I'm Mr Reckless with a capital R
(Chorus)
Don't hold your breath, imma not losing sleep over you
I'm Mr Reckless with a capital R
Don't hold your breath, imma not losing sleep over you
I'm Mr Reckless, and you're defenceless
And isn't it funny how
Those black clouds follow you around?
It's Karma smiling down
Just let me know when it's in town
You act like the world owes you a favour
You want it all but you don't like the taste, oh
You've been throwing bricks at my window
Like there's no better way to say 'hello'
Hello...
(Chorus)
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/y/you-me-at-six-lyrics/reckless-lyrics.html ]
The best, you never had x4
I'm the devil on your shoulder
I'm the concious in your mind
I'm the feeling that you, you cannot hide
I'm the devil on your shoulder
Doesn't mean that love is blind
It's ok when it's Satan in disguise
Your loose lips let, let the words slide
You spend too much time thinking about my life
Stories you will spin, just for power trip
It's safe to say that I am not into it
In the picture you are not
Someone is in your spot
This is the result of people on moving on
Good luck with killing time
You won't be killing mine
I'll do my best
To always be on your mind
Your mind
I never once said I didn't mean this
I can't wait to see how this one pans out
You are the first to question my achievements
But that's all right, my dreams are living
Don't hold your breath, imma not losing sleep over you
I'm Mr Reckless with a capital R
(Chorus)
The best, you never had x4
Tuesday, 6 December 2011
Thursday, 26 May 2011
planetary (Go)
There might be something outside your window
But you just never know
There could be something right past the turnpike gates
But you just never know
If my velocity starts to make you sweat
Then just don’t let go
And if the heaven ain’t got a vacancy
Then we just, then we just, then we just
Then we just get up and go!
Ladies and gentlemen
Truth is now acceptable
Fame is now injectable
Process the progress
This core is critical
Faith is unavaliable
Let's become incredible
Please understand that
I can't slow down
I won't be waiting for you
I can't stop now, because I'm dancing
This planet's ours to defend
Ain't got no time to pretend
Don't fuck around, this is our last chance
If my velocity starts to make you sweat
Then just don’t let go
Cause the emergency room got no vacancy
Then we just, then we just, then we just
Then we just get up and go!
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Kill the party with me and never go home!
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Just leave the party with me, and never go home!
Your unbelieveable
Uh, so unbleieveable
Uh, you ruin everything
No, you better go home
I'm unbelieve, yeah
I'm undefeatable, yeah
Let’s ruin everything, blast it to the back row
Their so presentable,
Young and so ingestable
Stop, were recollectable
And I can't stand it!
This is a let 'em
A word is no regret of the sound
Please don’t go back on us now
If my velocity starts to make you sweat
Then just don’t let go
Cause the emergency room got no vacancy
Tell me who, do you trust, do you trust
And we just get up and go!
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Kill the party with me and never go home!
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Just leave the party with me, and never go home!
You keep eternity, give us the radio
Deploy the battery, we’re taking back control
It gives the energy light up the effigy
No chance to take it slow, but now I'm sure you know
Know, know, know, know, know (1,2,3,4)
Get up and go!
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Kill the party with me and never go home
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Just leave the party with me, and never go home!
Are we still having fun?
Are you holding the gun?
Take the money and run
We’ll never go home!
I’ve got nothing to lose
You’ve got nothing to say
And we're leaving today
We’ll never go home!
I think I better go now
I think I better go now
I think I better go now!
Think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
Go home!
But you just never know
There could be something right past the turnpike gates
But you just never know
If my velocity starts to make you sweat
Then just don’t let go
And if the heaven ain’t got a vacancy
Then we just, then we just, then we just
Then we just get up and go!
Ladies and gentlemen
Truth is now acceptable
Fame is now injectable
Process the progress
This core is critical
Faith is unavaliable
Let's become incredible
Please understand that
I can't slow down
I won't be waiting for you
I can't stop now, because I'm dancing
This planet's ours to defend
Ain't got no time to pretend
Don't fuck around, this is our last chance
If my velocity starts to make you sweat
Then just don’t let go
Cause the emergency room got no vacancy
Then we just, then we just, then we just
Then we just get up and go!
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Kill the party with me and never go home!
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Just leave the party with me, and never go home!
Your unbelieveable
Uh, so unbleieveable
Uh, you ruin everything
No, you better go home
I'm unbelieve, yeah
I'm undefeatable, yeah
Let’s ruin everything, blast it to the back row
Their so presentable,
Young and so ingestable
Stop, were recollectable
And I can't stand it!
This is a let 'em
A word is no regret of the sound
Please don’t go back on us now
If my velocity starts to make you sweat
Then just don’t let go
Cause the emergency room got no vacancy
Tell me who, do you trust, do you trust
And we just get up and go!
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Kill the party with me and never go home!
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Just leave the party with me, and never go home!
You keep eternity, give us the radio
Deploy the battery, we’re taking back control
It gives the energy light up the effigy
No chance to take it slow, but now I'm sure you know
Know, know, know, know, know (1,2,3,4)
Get up and go!
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Kill the party with me and never go home
Who they want you to be
Who they wanted to see
Just leave the party with me, and never go home!
Are we still having fun?
Are you holding the gun?
Take the money and run
We’ll never go home!
I’ve got nothing to lose
You’ve got nothing to say
And we're leaving today
We’ll never go home!
I think I better go now
I think I better go now
I think I better go now!
Think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
think I'm gunna go now,
Go home!
Tuesday, 26 April 2011
what the hell ?
You say that I'm messing with your head
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
All cause I was making out with your friend
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
Love hurts whether it's right or wrong
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
I can't stop cause I'm having too much fun
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
PRE-CHORUS
You're on your knees, begging please, "Stay with me"
But honestly? I just need to be a little crazy
CHORUS
All my life I've been good, but now?
I, I, I, am thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around
And I, I, I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can save me baby, baby
All my life I've been good, but now?
What the hell
What? What? What?
What the hell
So what if I go out on a million dates?
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
You never call or listen to me anyway
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
I'd rather rage than sit around and wait all day
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
Don't get me wrong, I just need some time to play
(E-yeah-ay)
PRE-CHORUS
You're on your knees, begging please, "Stay with me" (la la la-ah)
But honestly? I just need to be a little crazy (crazy)
CHORUS
All my life I've been good, but now?
I, I, I, am thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around
And I, I, I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can save me baby, baby
All my life I've been good, but now?
What the hell
La la la la la la la
Woah-oh, woah-oh-oh
La la la la la la la
Woah-oh, woah-oh-oh
You say that I'm messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head
When I'm messing with you in bed
CHORUS
All my life I've been good, but now?
I, I, I, am thinking what the hell (what the hell)
All I want is to mess around
And I, I, I don't really care about (I don't care about)
All my life I've been good, but now?
I, I, I, am thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around
And I, I, I don't really care about (if you love me)
If you love me (you know)
If you hate me (you know)
You can save me baby, baby (if you love me)
All my life I've been good, but now?
What the hell
La la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
All cause I was making out with your friend
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
Love hurts whether it's right or wrong
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
I can't stop cause I'm having too much fun
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
PRE-CHORUS
You're on your knees, begging please, "Stay with me"
But honestly? I just need to be a little crazy
CHORUS
All my life I've been good, but now?
I, I, I, am thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around
And I, I, I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can save me baby, baby
All my life I've been good, but now?
What the hell
What? What? What?
What the hell
So what if I go out on a million dates?
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
You never call or listen to me anyway
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
I'd rather rage than sit around and wait all day
(Yeah yeah, yeah yeah)
Don't get me wrong, I just need some time to play
(E-yeah-ay)
PRE-CHORUS
You're on your knees, begging please, "Stay with me" (la la la-ah)
But honestly? I just need to be a little crazy (crazy)
CHORUS
All my life I've been good, but now?
I, I, I, am thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around
And I, I, I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can save me baby, baby
All my life I've been good, but now?
What the hell
La la la la la la la
Woah-oh, woah-oh-oh
La la la la la la la
Woah-oh, woah-oh-oh
You say that I'm messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head
When I'm messing with you in bed
CHORUS
All my life I've been good, but now?
I, I, I, am thinking what the hell (what the hell)
All I want is to mess around
And I, I, I don't really care about (I don't care about)
All my life I've been good, but now?
I, I, I, am thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around
And I, I, I don't really care about (if you love me)
If you love me (you know)
If you hate me (you know)
You can save me baby, baby (if you love me)
All my life I've been good, but now?
What the hell
La la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la
Wednesday, 6 April 2011
Ok didnt mean to do that, I miss her and all that but well it seems I'm the only one doing the missing. I miss ellen and sian alot to but i see them as much as I can, they haven't changed much thank god they are just a little bit more matured :). I love them <3 and my college friends well what can I say we have such a laugh including Ben his really quite fun. Josh dislikes me because i am of a different class ! I thought that was all the 18th century not 21st but ah wells :) I heard Danny and Claire broke up which makes me sad i was hoping they both would prove me wrong , especially Danny. Claire has a good heart <3.
Gotta go
Love
Charlie
Xxx
Gotta go
Love
Charlie
Xxx
Everybody wants to change the world but no-one wants to die
Hey there bloggers,
How's you all?? I got my implant out And went back on the pill :) . Gosh I'm not really into this anymore. So update barely talk to cally we seem to have very little in common nowadays:(
How's you all?? I got my implant out And went back on the pill :) . Gosh I'm not really into this anymore. So update barely talk to cally we seem to have very little in common nowadays:(
Monday, 14 March 2011
'be a sinner , be a lover... Be italian'
Hey bloggers,
I don't know if italians are Actually like this but meh ! So what have all you been up to ? So Anyhoo today I'm just chillin .... And look people the beautiful sun is out!!! I feel sorry for japan though tough times out there ... I'm off anyways. See ya
Love
Charlie
Xxx
I don't know if italians are Actually like this but meh ! So what have all you been up to ? So Anyhoo today I'm just chillin .... And look people the beautiful sun is out!!! I feel sorry for japan though tough times out there ... I'm off anyways. See ya
Love
Charlie
Xxx
Friday, 18 February 2011
for Nanna paddy R.I.P.
'vera lynn we'll meet again'
Let's say goodbye with a smile dear,
Just for awhile dear, we must part
Don't let this parting upset you,
I'll not forget you, sweetheart,
We'll meet again,
Don't know where,don't know when.
But I know we'll meet again, some sunny day.
Keep smiling through ,
Just like you always do,
Till the blue skies chase those dark clouds, far away.
And I will just say hello,
To the folks that you know,
Tell them you won't be long,
They'll be happy to know that as I saw you go
You were singing this song .
Let's say goodbye with a smile dear,
Just for awhile dear, we must part
Don't let this parting upset you,
I'll not forget you, sweetheart,
We'll meet again,
Don't know where,don't know when.
But I know we'll meet again, some sunny day.
Keep smiling through ,
Just like you always do,
Till the blue skies chase those dark clouds, far away.
And I will just say hello,
To the folks that you know,
Tell them you won't be long,
They'll be happy to know that as I saw you go
You were singing this song .
Friday, 11 February 2011
back to go again
Is this really open to discuss?
Maybe we should just hang it up
We were so close
They said we were so far
And we swore by now we'd have them wow'd
But we're still stuck in this race.
With hopes and dreams a ton
When did we stop having fun?
We got lost somewhere they're not and
Do you remember when
We said it would never end
We won't back down
This time around
Stop where you are and wish
Little things couldn't kill this.
Count down from ten
We could be back to go again
Maybe we started phoning it in
But then again the numbers wouldn't quite make sense
They don't lie
Give me 10,000 eyes
And this isn't a song about candy
But we're still suckers the same
We fell for your lies
Each and every time
We got lost somewhere they're not and
Do you remember when
We said it would never end
We won't back down
This time around
Stop where you are and wish
Little things couldn't kill this.
Count down from ten
We could be back to go again
Back to go again, again
Time is like a bullet train
Running off the tracks
And it's never coming back
So let's grab this while we can
It's all in our hands
Do you remember when
Do you remember and
Do you remember when
We said it would never end
We won't back down
This time around
Stop where you are and trust
'cause little things would better kill us
Count down from ten
We could be back to go again
Maybe we should just hang it up
We were so close
They said we were so far
And we swore by now we'd have them wow'd
But we're still stuck in this race.
With hopes and dreams a ton
When did we stop having fun?
We got lost somewhere they're not and
Do you remember when
We said it would never end
We won't back down
This time around
Stop where you are and wish
Little things couldn't kill this.
Count down from ten
We could be back to go again
Maybe we started phoning it in
But then again the numbers wouldn't quite make sense
They don't lie
Give me 10,000 eyes
And this isn't a song about candy
But we're still suckers the same
We fell for your lies
Each and every time
We got lost somewhere they're not and
Do you remember when
We said it would never end
We won't back down
This time around
Stop where you are and wish
Little things couldn't kill this.
Count down from ten
We could be back to go again
Back to go again, again
Time is like a bullet train
Running off the tracks
And it's never coming back
So let's grab this while we can
It's all in our hands
Do you remember when
Do you remember and
Do you remember when
We said it would never end
We won't back down
This time around
Stop where you are and trust
'cause little things would better kill us
Count down from ten
We could be back to go again
lollipop- framing hanley
She said he so sweet
I wanna lick the rapper
And she she licked me
Like a lollipop, like a lollipop
Shawty wanna thug
Bottles in the club
Shawty wanna hump
You know I like to touch
Ya lovely lady lumps
[x2]
Cute lil' mama had a swag like mine
She even wear her hair down her back like mine
I make her feel right when its wrong like lyin'
Man she ain't never had a love like mine
But Man I ain't never seen an ass like hers
That pussy in my mouth had me loss for words
I told her to back it up like berp berp
I made that ass jump like jerp jerp
That's when she she licked me
Like a lollipop, like a lollipop
Shawty wanna thug
Bottles in the club
Shawty wanna hump
You know I like to touch
Ya lovely lady lumps
[x2]
Won't you get on your knees
Won't you get on your knees
Call me so I can
Make it juicy for you
Call me so I can
Get it juicy for you
Call me so I can
Make it juicy for you
Call me so I can
Get it juicy
[x2]
Shawty wanna thug
Bottles in the club
Shawty wanna hump
You know I like to touch
Ya lovely lady lumps
Won't you get on your knees
I wanna lick the rapper
And she she licked me
Like a lollipop, like a lollipop
Shawty wanna thug
Bottles in the club
Shawty wanna hump
You know I like to touch
Ya lovely lady lumps
[x2]
Cute lil' mama had a swag like mine
She even wear her hair down her back like mine
I make her feel right when its wrong like lyin'
Man she ain't never had a love like mine
But Man I ain't never seen an ass like hers
That pussy in my mouth had me loss for words
I told her to back it up like berp berp
I made that ass jump like jerp jerp
That's when she she licked me
Like a lollipop, like a lollipop
Shawty wanna thug
Bottles in the club
Shawty wanna hump
You know I like to touch
Ya lovely lady lumps
[x2]
Won't you get on your knees
Won't you get on your knees
Call me so I can
Make it juicy for you
Call me so I can
Get it juicy for you
Call me so I can
Make it juicy for you
Call me so I can
Get it juicy
[x2]
Shawty wanna thug
Bottles in the club
Shawty wanna hump
You know I like to touch
Ya lovely lady lumps
Won't you get on your knees
"It Must Really Suck To Be Four Year Strong Right Now"
I'm a mess, such a wreck, don’t forget about it.
I drag myself through the dirt just to feel a little closer to the ground,
Because I've always had my head up in the clouds.
Take a second and look down,
I've got my name on a string,
Tangled up in lights, despite the fact that they are working.
I live my life on the line to find a way to be unforgettable.
Don’t fix it if it hasn’t broken yet!
Don’t regret it if it hasn’t happened yet!
So let’s GO! A tiny spark to set it off!
And EXPLODE! Ignite the dark, illuminate the unknown,
But since your heads in the clouds, the best advice I found is don’t look down.
Face the facts! You’re a betting man and the deck is stacked
Against you all the time,
Since your life is just a failure by design.
Do you feel like you're better without it?
Cause it looks like you're nothing without it.
Don’t fix it if it hasn’t broken yet!
Don’t regret it if it hasn’t happened yet!
So let’s GO! A tiny spark to set it off!
And EXPLODE! Ignite the dark, illuminate the unknown,
But since your heads in the clouds, the best advice I found is don’t look down.
(BREAKDOWN)
DON’T LOOK DOWN!
(BREAKDOWN)
A tiny spark TO SET IT OFF,
Ignite the dark AND LIVE IT UP!
Don’t fix it if it hasn’t broken yet!
Don’t regret it if it hasn’t happened yet!
So let’s GO! A tiny spark to set it off!
And EXPLODE! Ignite the dark, illuminate the unknown,
But since your heads in the clouds, the best advice I found is don’t look down.
Well it’s the best advice I've found...
DON’T LOOK DOWN!
I drag myself through the dirt just to feel a little closer to the ground,
Because I've always had my head up in the clouds.
Take a second and look down,
I've got my name on a string,
Tangled up in lights, despite the fact that they are working.
I live my life on the line to find a way to be unforgettable.
Don’t fix it if it hasn’t broken yet!
Don’t regret it if it hasn’t happened yet!
So let’s GO! A tiny spark to set it off!
And EXPLODE! Ignite the dark, illuminate the unknown,
But since your heads in the clouds, the best advice I found is don’t look down.
Face the facts! You’re a betting man and the deck is stacked
Against you all the time,
Since your life is just a failure by design.
Do you feel like you're better without it?
Cause it looks like you're nothing without it.
Don’t fix it if it hasn’t broken yet!
Don’t regret it if it hasn’t happened yet!
So let’s GO! A tiny spark to set it off!
And EXPLODE! Ignite the dark, illuminate the unknown,
But since your heads in the clouds, the best advice I found is don’t look down.
(BREAKDOWN)
DON’T LOOK DOWN!
(BREAKDOWN)
A tiny spark TO SET IT OFF,
Ignite the dark AND LIVE IT UP!
Don’t fix it if it hasn’t broken yet!
Don’t regret it if it hasn’t happened yet!
So let’s GO! A tiny spark to set it off!
And EXPLODE! Ignite the dark, illuminate the unknown,
But since your heads in the clouds, the best advice I found is don’t look down.
Well it’s the best advice I've found...
DON’T LOOK DOWN!
Monday, 7 February 2011
'i've found the cure to growing older'
hey peoples,
so whats happening?
i've been hearing things about people and i want to help but i cant coz i'm not supposed to but im always here to help just incase. no matter what its what i do.
whats with all this secrets being blogged? i might try it but i suppose i'm unwilling because my secrets are mine but here it goes theres very few.
1. i really hate myself completely.
2.i'm fed up of keeping everyone else's secrets.
3.i want to remember my childhood but im scared to because i know some really bad stuff happened.
thats about it really, wow, at least i dont have loads it makes it less of an issue.
i haven't blogged in ages dude i always try to but get distracted by something. i guess i have no reason to i am completely happy well apart from my friends having some problems and they dont think i know of course but i'm not stupid.
hopefully going gigging with katie soon !!! SHE OWES ME A GIG. anyhoo best get going i'm going to watch 'the biggest loser' with mum and dad later ! easteners is on soon errrggg :| sucks.
lots of love
charlie
xxx
so whats happening?
i've been hearing things about people and i want to help but i cant coz i'm not supposed to but im always here to help just incase. no matter what its what i do.
whats with all this secrets being blogged? i might try it but i suppose i'm unwilling because my secrets are mine but here it goes theres very few.
1. i really hate myself completely.
2.i'm fed up of keeping everyone else's secrets.
3.i want to remember my childhood but im scared to because i know some really bad stuff happened.
thats about it really, wow, at least i dont have loads it makes it less of an issue.
i haven't blogged in ages dude i always try to but get distracted by something. i guess i have no reason to i am completely happy well apart from my friends having some problems and they dont think i know of course but i'm not stupid.
hopefully going gigging with katie soon !!! SHE OWES ME A GIG. anyhoo best get going i'm going to watch 'the biggest loser' with mum and dad later ! easteners is on soon errrggg :| sucks.
lots of love
charlie
xxx
Wednesday, 12 January 2011
'honestly can you beleive we crossed the world while it was asleep'
hey bloggers,
my grandad is fine just had some blood clots they thought it was a heart attack which sucks really.any way newest promblem is our boiler doesnt work although i prefer that to having half my family ill or dying. so blogging aimlessly, aidan's lil sis is called amelie its a cute name :) xxx
love
charlie
xxx
my grandad is fine just had some blood clots they thought it was a heart attack which sucks really.any way newest promblem is our boiler doesnt work although i prefer that to having half my family ill or dying. so blogging aimlessly, aidan's lil sis is called amelie its a cute name :) xxx
love
charlie
xxx
Friday, 7 January 2011
'dear mr president were you a lonely boy ?'
Thursday, 6 January 2011
'down but not out'
the most rediculous phobias
Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.
Barophobia- Fear of gravity.
Chromophobia or Chromatophobia- Fear of colours.
Eleutherophobia- Fear of freedom.
Euphobia- Fear of hearing good news.
Hedonophobia- Fear of feeling pleasure.
Parthenophobia- Fear of virgins
Ouranophobia or Uranophobia- Fear of heaven.
Maniaphobia- Fear of insanity. ( will make you go insane)
Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.
Barophobia- Fear of gravity.
Chromophobia or Chromatophobia- Fear of colours.
Eleutherophobia- Fear of freedom.
Euphobia- Fear of hearing good news.
Hedonophobia- Fear of feeling pleasure.
Parthenophobia- Fear of virgins
Ouranophobia or Uranophobia- Fear of heaven.
Maniaphobia- Fear of insanity. ( will make you go insane)
Tuesday, 4 January 2011
' am i more then you bargined for?'
wow its been over a month.
yet i have nothing to write about. no love intrest. no problems. except for maybe one ? feeling unwanted at times you know ? like the night before my birthday my parents were arguing ( not much of a problem) but my mum acted as if she didnt want me and my sis she kept going on about how we were our fathers kids and we could fuck off. so will i ever have a mother figure ? because to be honest she doesnt waant to be our mum she feels forced into it. i can see it in her eyes sometimes the lack of love then the next second its gone from her eyes. is it my imagination ? more than likely right ? but then i have always used peoples eyes to read them and it worked before. i can tell when people are sad/uncofortable just by their eyes. when they hate me or think i'm pretty cool. however i havent ever had mother really and i never will . i AM unwanted there. i fought to live to survive all my life. my moto ' the only person you can depend on is yourself no-one else'. so maybe i should stick to it in evry part of my life. i mean thats why i dont date i push guys away or keep them away because they will only break your heart. is that the same with everyone you love ? honestly i dont know but i've been hurt so many times that my heart is definately locked away and sometimes i cant even find it but carry on right?
i had so much fun yesterday and it seems like garry has always been part of our group to be honest <3
'who shits on the floor in blockbuster?' ;)
imma growing my dumbledore beeard back :)
love
charlie
xxx
yet i have nothing to write about. no love intrest. no problems. except for maybe one ? feeling unwanted at times you know ? like the night before my birthday my parents were arguing ( not much of a problem) but my mum acted as if she didnt want me and my sis she kept going on about how we were our fathers kids and we could fuck off. so will i ever have a mother figure ? because to be honest she doesnt waant to be our mum she feels forced into it. i can see it in her eyes sometimes the lack of love then the next second its gone from her eyes. is it my imagination ? more than likely right ? but then i have always used peoples eyes to read them and it worked before. i can tell when people are sad/uncofortable just by their eyes. when they hate me or think i'm pretty cool. however i havent ever had mother really and i never will . i AM unwanted there. i fought to live to survive all my life. my moto ' the only person you can depend on is yourself no-one else'. so maybe i should stick to it in evry part of my life. i mean thats why i dont date i push guys away or keep them away because they will only break your heart. is that the same with everyone you love ? honestly i dont know but i've been hurt so many times that my heart is definately locked away and sometimes i cant even find it but carry on right?
i had so much fun yesterday and it seems like garry has always been part of our group to be honest <3
'who shits on the floor in blockbuster?' ;)
imma growing my dumbledore beeard back :)
love
charlie
xxx
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